Thinking Aloud

There is a certain calmness that comes with knowing what will happen next.

Years ago, the only thing certain as a new week begins is that i have to go to work from 8am until 5pm (on certain lucky days). What happens after work is all out in the open. I (with my friends) decide shortly before going home that we want to hit the mall for dinner, or catch a movie or just stay in the office to pass time. Nothing is planned way in advance. Out of town trips were decided days before the trip. Days not weeks. Actually, whenever we plan trips way ahead, di natutuloy. Perfect example, Baguio!

I would wake up late on a Sunday and go to Church then hit the market. Nun lang ako nag dedecide na magluluto pala ako that day and kung ano iluluto ko (oo na, sinigang naman lagi!). I watch TV for hours and take a nap. Then pag gising ko, gusto ko pala ng halo-halo so punta ako ng Chowking. Gusto ko magbasa ng dyaryo, lakad sa office, para kunin lahat ng newspaper (binabalik po, promise!).

But times have changed. Dependent na ako sa calendar ng mobile phone ko. I had to save every single thought of what I should be doing on my phone or I won’t get them done. I plan ahead, I even plan my weekly meals. Ganun din sa office, very useful ang groupwise calendar.

Yeah, I love the calmness of knowing what’s up next, of what I have to do the day after tomorrow, what’s for breakfast on Thursday or where I am going to be on Sunday. Pati kung ilang beses ako kakain sa labas or bibili ng takeaway (hindi dahil nagkukuripot ako). Pati kung ano ang palabas sa TV sa araw-araw kabisado ko na. As in nakaschedule ang recorder!

But then sometimes, we prefer not to have that calmness in our lives. We want things to unravel before our eyes. Ung spontaneous. Ung bigla na lang, trip mong gawin ang isang bagay, tapos pwede mo ng gawin agad-agad. Actually, pwede naman siguro. Its just a matter of getting used to it ulit.

Or shall I say, having the guts to live on the fast lane once again.

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